My Blog, My Own Space, not too personal yet close ^^

Niat, the true Intention

2012-02-15T08:54:00.003+13:00

I just realised, it is our real niat. not doing things for glamour. thus let it be a secret, what have we endured, so that we r not bad mouthing others n also ourselves. let Allah be the judge if there is injustice. but I think this is not happening to me coz I know the people r very bz and im doing nothing much. juz praying that some other time no sweet talk & promises & then just forget our responsible. I promised to keep it to myself from now on. no need for people around us to know.. I forgive u and forgive me if i do wrong by thinking bad thing about u. I bet u have more big responsibilities. Allah, forgive me. It is now return to our real 'niat', do it becoz of fame or Allah?

"May you arrive as part of the family, and tread an easy path (as you enter)."

2012-02-08T05:40:00.008+13:00

& i would like to thank my fellow friends for being my guest.

yor presence brings smile to us :) dh lma tau xterima tetamu dsebabkan kepayahan hidup. ececeh. we hav our own reason that people might not understand & i express my gratitude to all of u as without u realising or not we juz love having u as a part of our family. do come again :) luv u XOXO.

praying we may meet again insyaAllah. please take care ^^

ira

*kesian hg teman mak aku p fisio skali. thanks darl. missing u always*

pakcik rani & makcik

*terima kasih sudi mai. nanti mai la lg. mai la NZ alang2 p aussie*

cik syah

*ni memg best fren mama nih. anak sulung ma

ma katanya. hehe*

kamilah, pkck omran & mkck yaslah

*nanti datang la lg... seronok tul ma borak2 dgn makcik yaslah & pkcik O. kemi nnt mai tidoq umah k*

aunt poji

*nnt kami p umah lak ea. insyaAllah... hee*

kak khai & kawan2

*mnta maaf sgt2 lambat hr tu. jgn serik dtg lg ea. cuti2 klu xbalik tdo ja sini. jgn malu2. hehe*

tkah, amir, poji, wan, aina

smks gang ~inspirasi forever in my heart

*mnta maaf xblanja mkn hr tu.... slalu wat kan. hehe. xdan. nnt mai lg tau. missing all of u. nnt klu xda aral lintang aku lak p sik, jmpa ampa smua d pekan ^^amet, wan, nak gambaq! *

ili & qili

*tidoq sini weyh nnt! rindu*

our very first guests

ida, bubok, kudut, esah

*mai la lg... jgn malu2. ley mkn maggi & kropok moni sama2. heheh. ida & esah makcik ajak tdo agi even im not here. jgn malu2*

hoping all of u are happy as we are :)

all of u r always

"Love for other people what you love for yourself"

The Messenger of Allah [s] further guides us by saying:

"Whoever believes in Allah and the Last Day should be hospitable with his or her guests."

hair band is soo cute....

2012-02-08T05:00:00.007+13:00

now in a new sanctuary alhamdulillah

my cute neighbours come here almost everyday & if they didnt, life seems so dull.

presenting...........

qismina tihany (the pinky girl) & nur iman batrisyia (the green girl), also their mom k. ida, birthday girl (ina) & my mom :)

hany always wear cute hair band. i luv em so much & really wanted to make 1.

so now, im gathering materials. wuhuuu.

i've seen people wearing hair band wif scarves, they look so sweet :)

i even googled for ideas. this 1 is similar wif my dream hair band. simple yet elegant *easy to make too* hehe

the others that oso caught my eyes

ps/ must pack for going back to auckland. as usual, only a bag pack (travelling bag which is only carry on baggage) without any luggage. i hate bringin big bag while travelling. just important things. more over, ye la xkayooo. jimat la skit.

keberkatan

2012-01-23T03:15:00.002+13:00

keberkatan = blessing

berkat = thanks to

assalamualaikum, to all my dear :) thanks for encouraging me to write again. Alhamulillah I finally write. this particular topic has always been in my mind. berkat. blessing. and in life, i've tried my best to always have blessing in my life. and I know you my dear are always like this too. siapa yg xmau keberkatan dalam hidup kan. insyaAllah, with blessing, we always happy. I am too. there are many times when I face difficulties, as anyone will in their life, I am able to smile when I think of His blessing.

in life, money is important. we need money to pay rent, bills, eat. i know. life is hard. i've always know that. but dear. money is not everything. as long as we have enough to feed ourselves, praise Him. if it's not enough. praise Him too because He tested us to grant us millions of benefit with our patience.

especially with people, try our best not to be stingy. Im stingy. when I forgot of Him, of His blessing. and now I realised it again. Alhamdulillah. even though we r in need, without money. if we help others, He will ease our burden. InsyaAllah. even by not donating, try to be more tolerant, by not becoming fussy with our fellow friends. if they owe us, try to make it as our sadakah. try to give more when it comes to collecting money in group. dont think of what is right and what is wrong, whether it is not fair it's us who always tolerate. coz masyaAllah. He will make us richer than other people who doesnt have any problem.

let me give u a simple example. a story.

sarah & damia both are students. having the same allowances, 1000 per month. and they both have to pay their hostel let say 800 per month. so both of them shud hav rm 200 more.

sarah only has a father. a rubber tapper. her mom died years ago. she seldom eat outside her hostel. she eats at the canteen, ordering the cheapest food, plain fried rice.

damia, both her parents work as clerk. damia also take good care of her money, her parents sometimes giv her extra money though but she is also not wealthy.

both of them always sad because of money. they need to pay for their expensive coursebook. however, surprisingly. sarah is much more happy than damia. instead, sarah also sometimes give her money to her father. Alhamdulillah she is able to save some. sarah is happier than damia even though damia actually has more money than she is, damia never sleep in starvation.

I always believe that girl like sarah & damia. they r both a good girl. however, damia is like me, she forgpt of Allah's promise which is He will repay us double if we gave others. and thus, Sarah is much more happy, she always remember that Allah will always help her through happiness nor pain. She never a stingy person. even though she is poor, she help her friends who r in need. She never complain. with that, she is able to sleep and smile each day. Alhamdulillah.

people are both similar and different. all people have problems, no matter who we are. but every people have their own way of coping and dealing with the problems. it's up to us on how to receive His blessing. He always bless us. it depends on us whether to thank him and do every thing to show our blessing or bz being angry of Him until we forgot to repay Him, continue our lives crying.

I wrote this simply to always remind my self. because I often become that Damia girl. and only sometimes I become Sarah. May all of us always remember Him. through happiness and pain. InsyaAllah. Thank you Allah and thank you my friend :)

is thinking of stopping to blog & delete all the posts before

2012-01-22T11:37:00.002+13:00

should or should I not....

coz im not good in speaking nor writing. i prefer to keep in on my own like the old days. maybe this is the best

Funny ai

2011-10-12T12:18:00.010+13:00

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Im saying this with L.O.V.E

u see the picture before even try to meddle (not just assume but try to threat by law physically as well as mentally with your shallow thought by being islamophobic)

as u see this matters as this picture...

& u glorify this kind of picture as freedom and appreciation of beauty

and all this while u were teaching your kids to think critically, to find the truth, bla bla

& the truth is sexy women being use as object, being objectified, as toy to play. when I go to car exhibition, I wana look at the quality of the car, not the size of women parts

and the truth about women in islam is actually this

happy family, mom being loved by husband who respects her

and the children are well taught, so they understand their religion and manners

so that they act out as what they believe is good, not by force but by the love of their parents and God (Allah)

so say what u want again, and I'll just laugh. What we say reflect our thinking and when u voice out veiled women who were seen to lower their gaze as oppressed and submissive, that shows how shallow your thought are, sorry to say. and I always laugh looking at front page women of men magazines, and in the same time feeling sorry, because yes men admire your body, but to them you are not valuable. You will not gain respect and love by using your body. I say Muslim women lower their gaze as being humble & reflect deep thinking and my art tutor replied that is what human should be, not just Muslim. a hah, so why didnt all of us act like this? *reminding myself too, reminding myself too*

I wear hijab, I am a woman, I am muslim and I am not a terrorist nor being oppressed, and I didnt meddle with others affairs, I respect non-muslim be he/she is Christian, Hindu or Jewish. I only didnt respect Israeli as they are the real terrorist. I also opposed Muslim who hurt others. and all muslim whom I met never hurt people of other religion. All of them are very respectful and Im glad to say this truthfully.

so now, put on our thinking cap & think critically. please dont let me burst with laugh again. It's very funnyyyy. I dont want to hurt your feeling by saying the reason I laugh is because u didnt "think" or u think like a small cute tiny kiddo

Islam is peace :)

I have nothing to give

2011-09-22T02:01:00.002+12:00

I have nothing to give but love

He's the one who gave me love

Alhamdulillah

If my love still cant be seen or doubted

Im sorry

Aseef

because I have nothing but my love

I can give my respect

by not meddling in people's business and affairs

that is my respect

and that's it

if I have more

I'll definitely give it

sincerely

for you and Allah s.w.t

Turki Uncle

2011-09-19T04:31:00.000+12:00

Im having hardship right now

well yeah money is not everything maddi jane but we need money for almost anything

I went out at about 2 something, I always make sure Im out an hour early for anything important such as job (tp asymen lmbt lak kan ;P)

well thanks to my fren aka my senior who passed her job to me

eventhough i know quite a lot will be spent on transportation, experience is important :)

and if I get another job, im passing this job to my fren

so she went along with me

we ran and ran

and there's no bus after almost an hour

yeah im quite frustrated but lucky that the employer said we can arranged another

pity my friend, she went back to our hostel. sorry T. thanks for being there with me just now

I hope i get new job so that this job can be given to you

I know how hard it is to find job

so, I randomly (well thats me, RANDOM) changed my path to queenstreet

to buy headphone, mine damaged last night

need it for skyping session (both formal & informally) haha

there goes my 50box *ka-ching!*

in the free bus, on my way back, I sit near the exit door as always, that's my habbit

after a while a man spoke

"where r u from?"

Malaysia

and he shown the I-guessed-it-right expression

we chat

he's alone and here finding job

his eyes and facial expression

MasyaAllah may Allah bless him

He looks so worried after knowing that I've been looking for job for almost 6 month now

Im a student

He's a middle aged man

Im going to become a teacher,

He just has to struggle to find job as he doesnt have any educational opportunity left

Allah, may the uncle find job earlier than me. Im okay, still have my saving. and I know that there will be rezeki in the future to help my mom. *May great eastern insurance include the illness/disease to claim, even though there's none, deep down in my heart i know You will help me soon :)

:)

2011-09-17T02:11:00.002+12:00

He said:

"And whosoever puts his trust in Allah, then He will suffice him."

(65:3)

Narrated Ibn Abbas (May Allah be pleased with him)

"Allah (Alone) is sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs (for us)," was said by Ibrahim (May Allah be pleased with him) when he was thrown into the fire; and it was said by Muhammad (May the peace and blessing of Allah be upon him) when they (i.e. hypocrites) said, "Verily the people (pagans) have gathered against you (a great army), therefore, fear them, but it only increased them in Faith".

(Al-Bukhari and An-Nasa'i)

Dear Allah,

May You help me in helping my beloved.

I love You Allah.

Thank You for always being here for me no matter what and how I am

please Allah... please...

2011-09-15T15:22:00.005+12:00

Allah,

I am afraid of You

Im not pious

My good deed is not anough

I know that my sin is more than good deed

But Allah, I am willing to take all her sin, please

Give her sin to me

Let her be in Jannah

I beg You not to let her feel the pain of Your Hell even for a split second

Allah,

Give all her pain, illness, diseases, weariness and tears to me, I beg You please

Allah,

If only hurting oneself is not a sin, Im willing to hurt my self to help her

I will smell my own blood as roses in the garden

Allah,

I am afraid of unhappiness

I am very tired of the life I've gone through

no more tears as my tears has already dried since I was a child

but then Allah

Whenever Im in weariness and trouble

I almost pray that "O Allah, take away this misery and let me be happy at last after You tested me endlessly since Im a kid"

But then Allah, I dont want to pray that anymore

I smile, I smile

Because Allah, what is this compared to her

I remembered my du'a so that You shift all her sorrow to me

Allah

please let me take all her pain and tears

and I can endure all of this

I have nothing to give to You Allah

but please grant my prayer

Let her be the happiest woman in Jannah

She is the most perfect person that I have ever met in my entire life

I love her after You and Rasulullah

please let her be with You and Rasulullah

I am not strong thus Im not going to say that Im willing to be in Your Hell

but Allah, please let her be in Your Jannah

and let me be in even Your lowest heaven if that can make her be with You

above all Allah

as I love You more than her,

I love You, Rasulullah and her

let me be together with You, Rasulullah and

let me be by her side always

I want to give my love to her forever

I dont mind working in Your Heaven

as long as I can be with You, Rasulullah and my mother

the end ~dont read~

2011-09-02T14:54:00.003+12:00

done with emo state

things become clearer *agak clear la*

it's okay

tu la spa suh duk asyik kuaq merata, tu yg org xigt hg ;P

ps/ always put warning dont read. this one for people yg complain emo la hape la, ni blog, so biaq p la tuan dia nk ckp pa pun kan. ni ada satu sepatah dua kata, ada ja few people yg cakap ish dia ni xperlu la smua nak ckp dlm blog or FB or twit or friendster etc etc aku xtaw coz aku buta IT, bla bla. if u think about it carefully, the person has the right because thats what social networking is about. how to deal if u really cant stand the person's statuses or activity? hide or simply unfriend. simple. this is my experience, one man telling that here goes the couple again bla bla bla. it's not me la (i hope) haha. it's time for us to use brain. perh pedas. nah amek. thats y if people make very geli status or emo2, i dont mind. or i just simply unfriend. kan senang hidup :)

1st raya:

cohort 2 TESOL BBQ in the morning & crying all day long until I fell asleep & woke up at 12 in the midnight

2nd raya:
due to my emo state, lucky I still have people who care for me, asking me to beraya, even though i dont know most of the host, thanks guys ^^ feels like im in Malaysia. at night, we went to cirque du soleil, awesome acrobatic performance. we r asked to by our lecturer as one of our cultural experiences activities. bergaduh dgn org ;P u know who. sorry sgt. emo

3rd raya:

just finish preparing ingredients for kuah kacang. go kacang people! have a chat. let out all of my sadness, my terkilan ness (ngada). alhamdulillah. feeling better.

thinking of all my beloved. miss u. xnak sedih2 dah, i dont want all of u to be worried.

Dear Diary - DONT READ PLEASE

2011-09-02T02:12:00.003+12:00

if u feel bored & not interested, dont read this

I really dont want people to read this

inner same old same old crisis ;P

okay 1st syawal, sorry to say, seriously no fun (apart from my cohort BBQ, im happy at that time ^^)

that's because my own self get emo bla bla bla

second syawal, i became syawal open house crasher

fun!

went with good people to good house with good people and good food, alhamdulillah

dear Mira,

please stop emoing, get on wif your life :)

dont be sad or blame yorself & please dont blame others okay

everyone is kind, people just always forget

dont treat people badly okay

it's okay

live life to the fullest! ^^

u r a big young girl now

there's so little time for u to waste being melodramatic

remember Allah always :)

It's my 1st Syawal without a part of me

2011-09-01T01:09:00.003+12:00

this my status on the night of Syawal, baru nak masuk 1 syawal

"bersila duduk terletak, menganyam ketupat rindu, kasih jauh dikenang-kenang, kasih dekat entah ke mana, menitis air mata, melirih hiba, terkenang nasib badan, salah siapa, tidur beralaskan bintang, senyum melihat bulan, dibuai mimpi d kejauhan..."

then this one on the day of Syawal,

"when we are together, we r perfectly happy & it felt complete in such ways that we couldnt bother we r in total incompleteness. we smile & laugh like no others in this world of our own. i miss u ma, pia & ina... always will. selamat hari raya, maaf zahir dan batin. insyaAllah we'll be complete again :)"

and tonight, the beginning of 2nd Syawal, I wana say this:

dear Mira Mir. U have been through a lot. U r 1 tough girl. it's okay. dont change or blame yourself anymore. enough is enough. May Allah bless all my beloved. As u remember, your doa is May Allah take away the sorrow & weariness of your beloved & shifted it on u instead. He granted your prayer, thus, what's the need to be sad. I am happy whenever my beloved r happy. Here I am Allah, grateful to u, thanks for loving me dearly, despite all my wrongdoings. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

sorry if I made mistakes. selamat hari raya, maaf zahir & batin, ikhlas dari hati :)

Learning to be alive over and over again? for dummies series

2011-07-25T01:03:00.004+12:00

im not dead!

relax

last night, I read my diary to one of my beloved, Bubok

poyo kan...

I really am a quiet girl

yes Im always happy & smile when Im in front of u

I didnt wana fake my self

it's just me

Im a person who automatically put my other problems aside whenever Im in new situation

it's not fair to put all the anger we have on B eventhough Im sad because of A

in my life, there's no Im mad at A, B or C

I just sad because of the situation

and when im in new situation, I dont like bringing my melodramatic mood there

and one of my hobbies is blaming myself

as ego as I am

if u really know me

I put all the blame on me

now Im being less firm wif my own self

alhamdulillah

less internal conflict

mayb people wonders why am I so negative

y am I so hard to be understood

Im so complicated

moody xmenentu

dear, I have soo much problems

I know others too

and I respect them

Im not that strong

when Im quiet
im thinking of what to do

and I even stay quiet to hold my anger

I dont wana hurt a person

in case u r wondering nah it's not that bad

y be so serious

a hah! assumptions is one of my allergens.

I hate assumptions

dear, Im not used to cry & tell people

since Im a child

grown up lean on my shoulder to cry

Im used to keep it to myself

no matter how big it is

Im comfortable in being very secretive

I stay quiet just because I need time on my own

and Im not in the mood to socialise

its the time when Im at my introvert side

and even though I sometimes like to talk a lot

there's time that I prefer to stay quiet

rather than talking all the time talking unnecessary things to me

Im standing strong

because there's nothing to be worried of

It didnt burdens me at all

I have Him

He always hear my heart

I hope my friends whom sometimes feeling down, stay strong, we have Him. Y waste yor energy & decrease yor faith in Him by being sad and worry so much?

ps/ we will still feel sad, we're human, not robot. especially when people done us bad. if it just internal conflict, come on! we can do better u olls. InsyaAllah. I myself is not that strong. I fell many times but I'll get up.

to my dear fren, I feel sorry for u. in your case, it's external and forgive me, I think that person made a huge mistakes. If I were u, I'll be really sad. because I know u, u'll never break someone's heart. I pray u happiness, always dear always. love you. Huggss.

to my near fren, this post is also dedicated for u. thanks for understanding me. I know Im very lazy but u stay by me. I understood that u cant keep up wif my very lazy attitude, thanks for advising . thanks for noticing my effort of being a better person & stay fren wif me through all my flaws. also thanks for your vegetables & your 1 dollar hair band :) hee

Job Hunting Again

2011-07-20T16:04:00.003+12:00

Job hunting!!!

again and again

always in high spirit

ada masa sedih jua

iyo lah dah org susoh... huhu

nvm

go go me!

just now i called SJS

they said I can hold for my 3rd application

or just put many eggs in 1 basket

I really love this 3rd job

contact facilitator, mediator between children & parent whom divorved

so.... hurmm

it's ok

tonight I'll stay up & survey another type of job other than education

*guess that they really prefer locals here, i understood*

so I wana find cleaner or other job

job research tonight! hoyeah

& tomoro I'll get the employer's contact number *1 from phone, 2 from office at uni*

so i might go to uni just to get the contact number

hahah

semangat nih

Moga Allah mudahkan urusan mencari pengalaman dan rezeki. Ameen

ps/ almost fallen asleep in Art History 115 class just now, it's my first duh. at first it's very interesting wif all the pictures, then the lect started to talk a lot & im bored & tired not able to sleep night before. so, tomoro mayb got no class, juz wana go to SJS office

missing all my beloved :)

Lonely

2011-07-19T05:17:00.003+12:00

~trials of life~

a beautiful & mesmerizing song

Of all the trials in life

I stand and smile

because I know

and put all my faith

in You

You are the one whom I most love

above all

more than anything

& anyone

how much did I love all my beloved

I pray everyday

so that I could take all their pains

and how am I when I loved you

I wish I can give more than I could

it will never be enough

be afraid not of loneliness

being together with people & wealth is not eternal

It is Him who is immortal

The Most Loving

Infinite

New Azam

2011-07-17T21:15:00.003+12:00

New azam (wish)

1stly wana fin Quran & start new 1 during this Ramadhan insyaAllah

then I wana be independent

pamper my self more than pampering others

haha

for example I seldom buy things that I like

but now

I wana eat properly & buy things that I really like

but still I wana save money

coz Im not wealthy

*every penny that I use, I remember my family back at home*

keep hunting for part-time

I want new experience

go to more Islamic talk at the university

talk less

act more ^^

ameen

Kuih Makmur @ Snowballs

2011-07-16T18:00:00.004+12:00

it's not even fasting yet

but I really longed for this snowball like dessert

It looks cute

small round figure

a little bit mysterious

with a very snowy appearance

coated with icing sugar

when eaten we know it has peanut inside

it's fragile

we have to hold it gently

and eat it sincerely

it melts inside our mouth

I suddenly remembered my family

my sis r not making this 1

it's usually me & my mom because it's so tiring

it's not easy to made

this is the only kuih that Im good at

haha

I miss them

and maybe there's no kuih makmur for them this raya

Im not letting her to do it in her condition

and maybe I cried making kuih makmur here

but then

there is nothing to be worried off

because both my sisters good in making cake

even it's not kuih makmur

but it still feels the same

what Im trying to tell you is

if u worried so much about your beloved

bear in mind that they also know how to be independent

and the bond between us will be much more stronger if we r far away

even if we cant see each other

we always feel each other

through pain & happiness

and He always take care of us

dearly

we will be just fine ^^

Emo

2011-07-15T23:41:00.003+12:00

people like to tell Im emo

they tell me to relax

I often feel weird

because at that time Im feeling nothing

okay

now I tell you

If Im angry

I sleep

If Im in trouble

I eat less

and all the time when Im emo

I stay in silence

people didnt pay their debt

I just let it be

biar korg pk akhirat cmna

aku halal smua slagi Allah bg rezki :)

when people forgot to tell me something important

Im left out

its okay coz I know I always stay alone in my room

it's my sanctuary

*a koala sleeps 22 hours a day* haha

guys like seriously

I dont care a thing

I do my job well

I stay focus

Im lazy when I have nothing to do

I didnt bother others

Im an independent woman who do almost everything on my own

I lost my things

I didnt borrow

I buy new one *even when people borrow mine and they lost it*

I didnt get angry at all

I know u r innocent

people make mistake sometimes ait

Im also like that

cheers mate

but please

it annoys me when people always think that Im eaily get emo when Im not

it's strange that when I am angry & emo

people just dont realise it

haha

weird

believe me guys, if Im angry

nothing can stop me

Im emo & angry when people do bad. Im emo when it comes to my family, frens, children, old man/women.

so u can do bad to me, I dont care, worse can be i just sleep & cry under my comforter, as long as all my beloved is happy & healthy :)

Use everything that we have

2011-07-14T10:43:00.002+12:00

especially brains

keep our head low

yet still stood high in the eyes of the world

moral of the story

a winner is a man who sometimes agree

but still keep his principle

focus *not being out of topic thinking that we are always right & knew everything*

to always work hard

*okay my job hunting still no good news but im trying*

all in all,

Remember that only Allah whom you put trust to

ps/ all those is an advice for a woman call mira

what will be will be

2011-07-13T02:28:00.006+12:00

im a future English teacher

I wana be an English teacher since Im 3 years old

because I was inspired by my own dad

and I love English soo much

through English I read many books about various subjects:

medic

arts

literature

ancient history

event about my beloved Prophet Muhammad

politics

things that rarely children of my age read

alhamdulillah, thanks Abah for teaching me English

and when Im in primary school

I started to say I want to be a fashion designer when teacher ask us to do occupation exhibition ~sigh~

and when Im old, I started to realise it's teacher who I really wana be

a teacher who even though has small amount of salary compared to other professionals

abah said take law, teaching is hard and only half-pro in Malaysia, u cant be wealthy

because I love children

I want to inspired them

I want them to be successful

to help their family & nation

to teach them to always remember who they are

to fly as high as they can and still stood on ground

the recommendation letter

to pursue degree in international relation & politics is not the real me

even though I know I can

and teacher M really wana send the recommendation

sorry cikgu, I really wana teach

I've seen all my family members

from all sorts of parties

holding many high post in their own parties

fighting

glad they still sit in the same table to play cards? hurrmm

so here I am

struggling in my studies

to teach with all my heart

ignoring politics in teaching

to let the pure heart of young children remain clear

ps/ kalau la tahu keadaan akn jd mcm sekarang, aku truskan legacy dlm politik, mungkin aku terima ja twrn cikgu M yg sungguh2 nak aku amek degree politik antrabgsa tu. but then, I really I just wana teach. i dont wana change my nation alone, I wana inspires millions to continue serving to this country, insyaAllah

akal di depan emosi

Welcome home mira

2011-07-11T00:25:00.003+12:00

welcome home mira

welcome to your true self

no need tears & weep

just you & Him

just like the old days

stand on your own feet

you look at the others with love

no anger

no sorrow

no regret

Alhamdulillah

for being you

and keep being you

insyaAllah

May Allah bless us all. Ameen

ps/ focusing on finding job, ckecking on ibadah, minding own business without bothering others, look at others with love. that's my goal now ^^

Frisbee & netball

2011-07-08T01:09:00.002+12:00

just back from Dunedin

*ada frost tuuu, sejuk -4*
best

eventhough too bz & didnt hav the chance to go sightseeing

our flite rite after game finished

no pingu or cadbury factory

but hav fun time supporting frens

playing frisbee

& watching drama during netball

woaahhh

best

but not going for next year bersatu

biar atlet2 ja p

hehe

now wana concentrate on finding jobs

must buy flite ticket going home after the ends of nex sem, wana take care of mom

she needs me, 1 thing I never tell her is I need her even more.

May Allah bless her & ease her pain. insyaAllah ^^

thanks azim for helping me taking care of my family. no wonder you has a woman that loves u dearly.

ps/ tomoro wana do IRD card *necessary for applying job*, kol SJS for job, activate my bank card *lost it in dunedin*, go to the museum *for aqua exhibition*

y i rarely update blog now? blame my cute diary ^^

Ash Ketchum Achoom

2011-06-30T04:37:00.003+12:00

okay

Our flight for BERSATU games at Dunedin supposedly scheduled on 29jun

our naked bus early morning of 30jun burnt (redho) not refundable

however it has been cancelled bcoz of the volcanic ash (ketchum)

so we changed it to another day 1.05pm

then it has been cancelled again

and we rebook for the 2nd time 1st of july 8.30pm

however

according to the news

the ash might cleared early morning of 2nd july

so redho je laaaa (mcm anak redho dikahwinkan parents dgn suami bkn plihan hatinya)

huhu

so now i just open Jetstar flight status almost every 15 minutes

im very worried of my friends

all of us r quite down & tired for BERSATU due to this Ash Ketchum matter

hope that every1 will be just okay

we might have to go on a very long road trip

(redho jugak)

ps/ love seeing kak finie's shawl's tutorial :)

pray for all of us ^^

Engkaulah sandaran hati.....

2011-06-28T16:17:00.004+12:00

My heart is stone

It's okay to throw it here & there

I welcome u

becoz Im use to it

shout, make face, do anything that u like

that's me

in front of all of u

as im used to

having people spit out anything they wanna say

and im still here

standing

still the same

silence

I love u Allah

thank you for being here with me

as always

Bless everybody

so that they smile :)

always

fruit-picking, here I come!

2011-06-26T01:42:00.003+12:00

I just emailed an orchard for summer job

fruit picking/packing

at first I thought I wouldnt get the job

but then just now i received an email

Thank you for your application, I can give you cherry picking and/or sorting from about the 11^th of December through to approximately the 20^th of January. We have a camping area and some cabins on site. I have your name on file now so please contact me again in August to confirm that you are still interested.

Regards

Manager

Name :
Gender : Female
Email :
Address :
Country : Malaysia
Date Of Birth : 3/4/90
Work Visa : yes
Position 1 : packhouse
Position 2 : orchard
Availability : middle of december until early of february
Message : i have first aid experience in school,
Referee :
Accommodation Needed : Yes
Transport : No
Comments : really love looking for new job experience, love to do works

*i've deleted some of the details. just read the message T_T gosh, why on earth I said that primary school sentence "i have first aid experience in school". duh!

i know fruit picking is not easy, my seniors told me. thanks :). im touched. hee. when i get the job which i thought i'll never get. Im glad. lucky that im used to lift up all heavy things at home. who to help us, mom broke her hand in an accident & her hand cant hold heavy things. my lil sister, i would never let them carry heavy things. 5 kg bucket compared to 10 kg rice which we carry from store to home, not to mention gasses when the shop people refuse to help.

tiada benda yang senang. semua susah. insyaAllah hidup punya ^^ wish me luck! excited to gain new experience

i've done some research

(',^)

ada hikmahnya aku hidup xsenang, kalau aku kaya, keja langsung aku xheran. cewah..

happy that Im not wealthy ^^

Dont

2011-06-24T16:24:00.004+12:00

dont do anything just because people ask us to

do it because u really wanted to

then u'll feel the sweetness of doing what u do

and u'll be istiqamah (doing what u do continuously)

Im proud to say I do what I want

I do what I love

I wana do everything Lillahita'ala

whole-hearted

thus Im happy alhamdulillah ^^

ps/ exam tomorrow. it's time to stop thinking of others for a while, taking sweet time on my own with Him studying ^^

SMILE :)

"cinta sejati itu, akan membuatkan kita berkorban tanpa sebarang arahan. terasa menusuk ke kalbu tanpa kita sedar. merasa bahagia walau penuh kepahitan ujian, tidak terasa lelah. moga kita semua berjaya memperoleh cinta tersebut, cinta yg hakiki, cinta Ilahi" (Mira Mir, 2011)

Skyping ^^

2011-06-24T02:04:00.004+12:00

Eventhough I dont have many friends

but Im proud to say I have many true friends

Farah wahidah

SuEmi

Bubok

eventhough my family doesnt have the opportunity to skype with me like others

we just use phone

kerinduan itu terubat bila skype dengan sahabat2 yg sgt dekat di hati kita

n dgn bubok jugak

now counting days tunggu hari nak jejak kaki ke Malaysia kembali

menemui semua famili & sahabat tercinta

& bubok

ps/ ok i really have to study. NOW! pray 4 me, last paper this 25th jun, then Im off to Dunedin this 29thjun for bersatu games ^^

eh! I have many true friends lagi! cuma xmention coz xberkesempatan skype. love all of u guys ^^

Zikrullah

2011-06-21T17:53:00.003+12:00

My dream

just a simple one

I zikr a lot

which I seldom done it in real life

that's all

but it made me realized

something which is very important

it's a must

alhamdulillah

He reminds me

because He knows

I forgot & always forget

astaghfirullah

Zikir taubat

ps/ May Allah bless him, may Allah show Himself to him, may Allah spread His hand to him and ma he take Allah's hand. Ameen

ps2/ i've already starting my diary, dah lama xtulis diary

Rumet ^^ ehehe

2011-06-17T21:37:00.007+12:00

My baby, Mawar Merah

My baby wildflower

iklan- my roome ^^

My jendela hati. ececeh

We do everything Lillahita'ala
what people think is not my concern

He knows what is in our heart

He knew mine

everything is just fine

to my roomie

no worries

I am really happy

this made me more aware:

"buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali"

and Im fine here

I have u, bubok, my family, and above all Him

and there's others too who are here with me

its not how many frens, but how much frens care bout us

here, my baby plant just for u :) & also my room & this post too ^^

mode/ sabar je la......

to my dear frens yg sy trasa hati especially, saya maafkan dunia akhirat, im glad seeing the smile on yor face, sorry I cant be the 1 who make u smile

and Im sorry to all of u if I ever made u hurt or do anything wrong

it's time for me to let go of u

it's time for me to be me again

treating my self

not to over push my self

& just smile

Feels like fasting everyday...

2011-06-14T20:41:00.003+12:00

The Messenger of God (may peace be upon him) said:
'Allah (God) the Exalted and Majestic said: Every act of the son of Adam is for him, except fasting. It is (exclusively) meant for Me and I (alone) will eward it. Fasting is a shield. When any one of you is fasting on a day, he should neither indulge in obscene language, nor raise the voice; or if anyone reviles him or tries to quarrel with him he should say: I am a person fasting. By Him, in Whose Hand is the life of Muhammad, the breath of the observer of fast is sweeter to Allah on the Day of judgment than the fragrance of musk. The one who fasts has two (occasions) of joy, one when he breaks the fast he is glad with the breaking of (the fast) and one when he meets his Lord he is glad with his fast.'

I want to be with Him always. Allah, I want to be with You ^^

What people know

2011-06-14T19:59:00.002+12:00

what people know is i love to sleep

what people dont know is

I sleep when Im sad

don't know what to say, when people dont wana hear, I just pray

2011-06-09T20:42:00.003+12:00

1stly about usrah

sorry that Im being direct

but hope that we usrah people,
do take care & be kind to those who are not in usrah as well

I sometime just join any usrah

but I prefer to join everybody

we may not notice

but many are hurt with sometimes our action & words

please greet everybody if we started to greet some

all of us are slaves of Him

all of us aims for Jannah
so let us live happily together

amar makruf nahi munkar wisely
we cannot bear our sin when we ignore others

but

we can choose the most graceful way of advising people

today in the united press

a New Zealand paper

publish about the Global Ikwan's Malaysia's obedient wives club

this is a good thing

however Im quite sad when wife are regarded as 1st class WHORE

I know this is for good cause

however

there is other choice

what about

wife is 'heaven's angel'?

so controversial

I really dont like controversial

and my life is already a drama & novel

thus I like peace & calm

u can say what u wana say

im not ambitious?

I wana open an orphanage or at least give free tuition to help the poor 1 day

say that im not being a good muslim by just stay in silent?

only Allah knows what I do everyday to improve myself

no need to tell the world

Im sad & ashamed

when my sisters & brothers are fighting

knowledge is to improve

not for debate

please do take care each other

even we are not in the same association

we are after all Muslim

servant of Him

ummat of Muhammad

he cried for us remember?

He cried because of us

Im sorry I know I hurt people

this is the last

I dont wana talk about this anymore

GIVEAWAY PERTAMA MIEMIEZS

2011-06-06T02:04:00.008+12:00

after training 4 bersatu

I felt so tired

praying at least i burnt 1% of fat ^^ hehe

then suddenly i dozzed off

just woke up to find food on my desk

woaahh mknn dr langit

rezki

alhamdulillah

thanks my dear mysterious friend

uhibbukifillah

okay, bukan slalu masuk any blog contest

so kali ni masuk coz ada kesempatan. yeay!

hehe ^^

thanks k qilah coz tag

click miemiezs below & follow her blog, then u'll know what to do. cewah ^^

I would like to tag my dear friends

mihevoli my luvly rumet

ps/ miemiezs is an educator as me :)

Family ^^

2011-06-04T22:11:00.002+12:00

I don't know whether others remember me or not

but I pray every1 is happy & healthy

always ^^

hakikatnya kita semua makhluk Nya, hamba Nya, bersaudara, keluarga.. maka berkasih sayanglah di antara kita. cubit paha kanan, paha kiri terasa sakit

saya di sini, saya juga keluarga kamu. saya mendoakan kebahagiaan kamu

moga kita semua diredha Nya

ps/ must wake up early again tomorrow. tired but it's okay ^^ go go Mira Mir!

It's really entertaining

2011-06-03T21:58:00.003+12:00

seeing small kids playing
and even they are making noise

while the rest are praying and reciting Quran

It's simply entertaining

to see their big eyes and big smiles showing their tummies ^^

~mode: just finish azab EDUC 283 test & EDUC 225 asymen~

~biar apa pun orang fikir, sabar dan percayalah kebenaran and sifat sebenar kita akan terserlah jua, jikalau tidak, Dia Maha Mengetahui~

Wherever You Are

2011-06-01T20:41:00.000+12:00

I sense You
I love You

Wherever You Are

no man is an island

2011-06-01T02:02:00.003+12:00

hav a chat about transport system here with an uncle

at the bus stop

well, I adore every1

he's a construction worker

but his idea was brilliant

he said he wana suggest the bus company to do group ticket like what we hav in train here

woahh.... I wish Malaysia adopt the same system as here

so that not only KL has superb transportation system ^^

how I wish

feels like wana be PM

hehe :P

walking alone

feeling the atmosphere

oh it's so homely...

im happy

Alhamdulillah

not totally alone insyaAllah

no man is an island

Allah is here

then there still people who love u

even most of the time u r on yor own

it's okay

what's important is to love everybody

take good care of yourself

& smile

ps/ alhamdulillah "boots & hoodie jacket" mission accomplished ^^ drop by at k nazz & k syu. asymen mode tomorrow. tonight I hav CV research.. May Allah blesses every1 & I always

Starry Starry Night

2011-05-30T00:18:00.003+12:00

Dont let your difficulties fill you with anxiety; after all, it is only in the darkest nights that the star shine more brilliantly.

~Ali Bin Abi Talib~

I wouldnt worries my life always as I know He is always there to take care of my beloved and He is always here to take care of me
He is everywhere

every second of my life

I love You

thank You for always being here with me through good & worse

and thank you to all of u my beloved family & friends, for accepting me as who Iam, for loving me dearly. I know Im such a pain, annoying, etc etc etc,

I love all of you

of course every 1 has problem

the only thing that differ is our way of handling it

and how we accept it ^^

Allah's creation. Subhanallah

Urut

2011-05-29T13:43:00.001+12:00

when others hurt, we urut them

when we hurt and nobody are going to urut us

it's okay

if it's leg, our two hands can urut ourselves

if it's 1 of our hand

our other hand can urut ourselves

quoted by Mr Bubok ^^

Just.Like.Kiddos -_-"

2011-05-29T02:49:00.003+12:00

I woke up this morning

excited to go to the netball & futsal training

after I got back from toilet

I suddenly realised I've fallen asleep & rush to stand up

I ended up falling from bed

and the interesting part is

my right hand touches the floor 1st

*click!*

wow

unbearable

I close my eyes & force myself to sleep again

& when i woke up

with the weird numb feeling at my hand

I texted my fren that I cant go to the practice

-_-"

that's the price of over excited. noted

Ouch! it hurts!

2011-05-28T03:47:00.004+12:00

I dont know bout others but for me it hurts

huhu

Im very sensitive

but it's okay

I know it's about religion

shouldnt take it easily

I wana be a good muslim

thus

thanks for the reminder my fren ^^

"say the true even it hurts"

syahadatul haq

amar makruf nahi munkar

and all the above must be done

full of wisdom

thank you again.

see, now Im okay

from Him I seek forgiveness & to Him I low down my position & pride. Who am I compared to the Almighty.

and ouh, life is so beautiful, Im contented, by just seeing what He gave me and people around me. to be able to breathe in, to walk on this earth anywhere we wana go, and to seek knowledge. please Allah, let me be istiqamah & always calm & less emotional so that I'll live life to the fullest in the quest searching for You.

ps/ went to the ball. eat & take pictures with my floormate & after we done eating, my frens & I go back. Alhamdulillah we arrived safely ^^

Masih Ada yg Sayang

2011-05-27T01:25:00.003+12:00

rupanya

masih ada yg sayang

Alhamdulillah

~malu mode after emo post before this~

just finish eating ya's tomyam noodle with fried chicken.

memang mengidam bihun

~empty stomach really make you emo, seriously~

Maybe Im an Exception

2011-05-26T18:44:00.002+12:00

People like white bread

I like wholemeal sandwich

which is hard to find, usually there's only white toast/sandwich & wholemeal toast

and this auntie said im different

yeah..

that's me

how about you?

each 1 of us is different

im very picky

because I know what I really like

but hey, I avoid burdening others

if I wana survey for a thing, I prefer to go out alone, so that I wouldnt annoy people *which I notice I always am -_-"*

for me, a great ummah is a society which is consist of different personality & strength but has the same aim. insyaAllah. I might be super duper weird but hey, all of us in the end eat bread. no matter what type of bread, it's still bread.

and Im comfortable to stand on my own feet but im not pushing others away, I just realised how introvert I am, after talking with Kak N ^^ She said it's not wrong to be different, just take good care of ourselves. yeah... if there's occasion, i'll participate if it is good, must fight the rebellious attitude of mine. all of us aiming for the eternal Jannah ^^

my mom, she once said, I may be different but at the end, after years, people will eventually like me. I always think of her, especially when I wonder why Im soo weird & didnt click so well with others. so I just have to keep being myself, not to please others, but to always help others

but of course it's even nicer if I have my good friend of mine here, who really understood & can bear me, my family, my beloved rumet, qili, they really appreciate me ^^ but hey! I still have friends here, no worries... it's just me, too different, and Im happy with my weird self. I really am.

Art in My life ^^ luv luv luv

2011-05-25T03:01:00.004+12:00

I draw this for my batchmate, INFINEIGHT 2006-2007 MJSC Langkawi. Luv all of u. May each one of us succeed ^^ ameen

yeah Im weird, I dont care, Im happy when I draw this weird stuff ^^

I discover this weird specialty of mine after im in a contest, drawing on an ostrich egg. we are asked to be creative. there's 1 boy (son of a very well known Perlis painter). so my teacher, my lovely mdm Murniwati, the teacher who inspires me to participate in almost every drawing competitions that ever exist. haha. she always said that we can be anything that we wana be and i should not stop drawing ^^ she suddenly came to me & told that the boy was drawing scenery. she encourage me to be creative, to draw what I like. my mom was also there (my mom is a ver great painter, believe me, I envy her). my mom suddenly suggested me to do halloween egg, then I drew a very weird halloween ostrich egg, that has many repeating lines on it. the boy won the 1st place (of course, he's the son of my state's famous painter). duh. then I noticed i really love this weird drawing, and i draw this line with any hidden name & give it as a special present to very special person ^^ my teachers, my family, my friends... all my beloved ^^

I really want to be involved in art again. hope my lecturer allows me to take art history as my minor *please jackie please please pretty please* ^^

I watched this video just now, this is why I wear hijab.
ps/ did u notice which one talk with wisdom & calmness? ^^

click me please :)

love ^^

2011-05-23T00:30:00.004+12:00

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.
Albert Einstein

Read more:http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_love2.html#ixzz1N5EgLV36

my fav quotes. even Albert Einstein *who-i-tot-somewhat-nerdy* can be romantic.

love everybody okay amira amir.. ^^ okay

I still wana keep it for myself

2011-05-22T21:37:00.002+12:00

for I know only He is the one who can soothe me
and that we must be good to everybody

no matter they laugh or tease us or even hurt us

just I dont wana be so dumb to let them do what they want with me
that's me

depends on person, whether they choose to show their feelings or not

my feelings is transparent, i cant pretend even if I want to

I just dont wana hurt others

and after a night

My rage subsided

that's me

thank God I dont like to talk as I please
silence is the best policy

tingkatkan amal, buangkan kebencian, penuhkan kasih sayang ^^

Im No ANgel, I know SAD & ANGRY

2011-05-22T01:41:00.003+12:00

Grumpy
Annoying
that's me

Yeah I know

Didnt mean it though

now always argue others

truk truk -_-"

must change, control my teenage rebellious attitude

emo2

feels like a total loser

1 more darl

Im no sweet girl

If u hurt me

beware

I might punch u

I mean it

mybe I'll kick u

Im no kidding

sometimes

I just fight back with my magic sword of words

most of the time

I just doze of

yeah im like a boy

I sleep whenever Im angry or worried

and when i woke up

i'll be fine

thanks to those around me

bear me

i'll try to chill okay

*lucky that Islam is the way of life, if not I just punch everybody or just suicide. chill. not going to do that. Im a muslim girl ^^

thank you Allah. Thank you for caring. I feel it, always

Im chewing and thinking~ about REZEKI

2011-05-18T01:15:00.000+12:00

assalamu'alaikum

Im chewing my cadbury choc

craving for choc in the middle of the night is my guilty pleasure

im imrpoving myself by fasting

so that I wont eat it during day too

ameen

when im in malaysia, i'll rarely eat choc

it's too expensive

*simpan duit utk kawin. haha*

just wana let it out of my mind & sharing:

of course we have our own rezeki alhamdulillah ^^

it's just hard, sometimes

but all of us r used to it

have u ever not been able to eat rice because u cant afford rice & dishes

the small sardines, cut it into 8, each 1 has like 1.5cmX1.5cm cube

and chicken when it's no good to be eaten even after reheated for more than 3 days, 3 times per day

and the chicken was washed with water & recooked

believe me

there are this kind of people

who endured a lot

which do not like to depend on others as people are too busy with their own lives

just continue working hard, stand on their feet

and lift up their hand for Allah's mercy

dont forget that in your belonging, there is a part of it which belongs to others. when you ease the others, insyaAllah you'll get more unexpectedly ^^ just continue your good deed, depends on Him & work hard for your rezeki. insyaAllah, there will be barakah.

and take good care of money, try to pay no more than 3 days & pay extra if u are in debt & ask less if people debt u

and oh!!! thank u soo much to everybody. U always help me, giving me many things. I dont mine taking used things, because I know u gave me so that it is useful for me. thank you. InsyaAllah I'll do the same to every1 too. there's nothing that makes me happy other than seeing the smile on your face when u get what u really need & like ^^

money can be found everywhere, but happiness can only be found when we give & take.

ps/ very ashamed of myself for always been given and little did I repay -_-"

insyaAllah I will, whenever I could, insyaAllah

okeyh EDUC 225 & LANG TEACH! HERE I COME!!!

Finally

2011-05-16T13:25:00.000+12:00

always thinking to get rid of whateva song
english sonsg that I loved
I really like arts
music especially
it's in my soul
lagha
didnt do any good
waste my time
doesnt teach me a thing
doesnt give pahala
and now
Alhamdulillah
I dont like that kind of music that much
but im still me :)
still listen to beautiful songs

akan sampai satu rasa yg sukar digambarkan, betapa manisnya bila kita berjuang dgn diri kita sendiri dan akhirnya tercapai matlamat yg ditetapkan sendiri atas usaha sendiri. walau lama & terumbang ambing, fight! Alhamdulillah ^^ ~masih terumbang ambing, like usuals, must remind my own self all the time.

doaku moga istiqamah. insyaAllah. I want my beloved to be better than me, so i have to be better first ^^

ps/ I always mentioned my beloved, it's not only for my future husband, it's for all, my family, my dearest friends, you

subhanallah.... hear this calming & soothing sound & words
i luv his sincere works since im a teenage in school ;)

Who am I? Im a teacher :) InsyaAllah an active teacher

2011-05-16T03:10:00.001+12:00

in the middle of the night

awake after 3 hours of early sleep

so long since i've been so active like today

playing futsal game for the 1st time

so I slept in tiredness -_-"

once upon a time in Huia

today

just now actually

when I met my floormates who are having a chat

I joined them

1 of my friend is also in BERSATU game

she's what I called naturally-born-athlete

today s her 1st trying futsal also but she's good at it ^^

well Im just a well reserved

hee

Mr. A my floormate: what r u playing for BERSATU?

Me: Err.. Im not sure. Im reserve for everything. not good in sports, just can play it but not athletic.

Mr. A: aa.. no worries, u r a good cook! ~he tried to give encouragement.

Me: err.... u wouldn't say that if u know what happen las 3 days. I fell sick after eating my own cook, too SPICY!

KRIK>>>KRIK>>>KRIK

~cricket singing~

well, Im happy the way I am. I know I can do almost anything even though Im not excellent in it. I try my best in everything, love to learn new things ^^

suddenly in my room, just now, I have 1 thing bout me that Im proud of, Im a teacher. this is my childhood dream & Im achieving it. Bonus that my dream to come here also came true. Alhamdulillah

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all. no matter if u r a driving teacher or student who always help teaching others & person who teach mengaji. Thank You... Most of all, thank you mama for being such a wonderful life educator. Of course my beloved teachers, lecturers, tutors ',^

ps/ be active, take good care of your health, our body is blessed by God, and it is our duty to take care of it. as what my Physical Education shirt in Mjsc langkawi 06/07 stated;

"You are not educated if you are not physically educated"

saya blogger muslimah..saya jaga aurat dan akhlak saya

2011-05-11T18:21:00.000+12:00

this is a campaign brought by this blogger ^^ thanks

and I saw this from my dear friend I called Angah. thanks Angah :)

for me, a good muslimah is a woman who take good care of her appearance, heart, mouth & deed. the most ideal, a woman who are istiqamah performing ibadah & doing good deeds by helping others. she take good care of her heart not to hate others and always has good tought towards others. she only speaks good & beneficial words by thinking throughly. I hope I will be that kind of woman, for Him, for my family, for him & for my self. doakan saya ^^

now, today Im soo tired.

last night is havoc!

we're managing our transportation to Dunedin for the coming BERSATU games

we're under UMNO AUCKLAND

it's a non-political party okeyh, dont get me wrong. hee

it is Malaysian association in Auckland

we'll be competing others UMNOians from other states in New Zealand

Im just a reserved. haha. like it. I wana support my friends.

HECTIC!!!!

there's some accident & careless mistake I made -_-"

but it's okay

Me & my friend endured it ^^

money is nothing compared to people ait especially friends

I love my TESOLion

a lot to do tonight:

linguist assignment, EDUC 225, reciting quran, solat...

insyaAllah istiqamah

miss kak mai, kak tasha & kak maya in bayt sakeenah. really miss them! but I wana stay up doing a lot of works, dont want to disturb them in the middle of night *bayt sakeenah is their home which Im very comfortable being in like my own* hehe

hoping others are well & dont skip classes. huhu

Words Are Not Just Words

2011-05-11T04:02:00.000+12:00

Say everything that you wanted to
but remember
your talking will be judge by Him in the hereafter
pity all your hard work for eternal happiness

and imagined how you hurt even a person

chatter like you are the best person in this world

for in the hereafter

we're just the weakest

who depends only on Him

and who carry the burdens of sin towards others

ps/ sorry if I hurt you my fren, I've never meant to do so. And to person who thinks you are doing good by saying too much that in the end, really hurt me & tonight I just cannot stand it anymore. May Allah forgive both of us, I forgave you. May Allah forgive you of your tongue and may Allah forgive me of my tears that cause you sin. sorry, I've tried my best but Im only human, we're both only human. Im working hard like you to live happily in the hereafter. believe me, only He knows what's in our heart & what is our deed

and now, Im really relieved. I love you my friend, for the sake of Him ^^ no hard feelings at all. the end ~

Thank You for reminding me ^^

2011-05-09T23:28:00.000+12:00

Just finish potluck ^^

Thanks to my dear sis who scolded me for being lazy to join usrah

most of all
thanks to her for taking time to understand

how I am soo

rebellious

dont like to be ordered

dont like to cling to others

like to stand on my own feet

but yet of course we need best close

love you

all of you

no matter where you are my friends

love you because of Allah ^^

ps/ if u wana ask me to do somting, do it nicely (like my dear isi did), dont just terkam, im rebellious, dont like to be ordered. huhu

Life is... Mama

2011-05-09T04:32:00.000+12:00

Dont make that histerical looks!

this my blog

"Life Is..." transform into "My Blog, My Own Space, not too personal yet close"

kapuff!

it just change

I love my blog

hee

Mama, I love you because well bla bla bla u take good care of me, etc etc

I love you the most because who always be a person who are kind-hearted, tough, sacrifice.

I actually admire you. after Rasulullah, I admire you dearly. I've never met a woman with a heart like you, with such empathy & the willingness to sacrifice.

We endured a lot. Thanks to you we end up enduring this life as normal as we could.

Im happy with you, through out pain & smile, I adore you really.

& ma, you're beautiful, inside & outside, I wouldnt ever dare wishing to be you, because I know you're the strongest & the prettiest woman. I'll just be a woman in my own way.

Thank you ma.

be healthy & please stop crying. Pia, Ina & I know how to take care of ourselves.

we need nobody to take good care of us as u have taught us a lot.

InsyaAllah we'll have our own soulmates but ma, we'll never forget you.

& if calamity strikes, we'll know how to stand up from falling, crawling & walk again

we even run,

all of this is because of u

the person who taught us to stand on our own feet

I'll hold & kiss u always, through happiness & pain. dont u shed a tears again ma,

we'll be just fine.....

insyaAllah

I love you Ma....

I see as a person

the kindest & toughest person He created that I've ever met
and I admire you as a person

I just didnt tell you

I know you always knew

Im standing here

because of you

ps/ Ma, Miss Goh (the petite-hard-working-army-like-teacher) said u r prettier than I am, actually she said im not pretty like you. she wonder why im not pretty. cheh. Idc. haha. InsyaAllah my daughters & sons will look like you ^^ apala miss goh -_-" jujur sangat

Aku juga punya hati & perasaan....

2011-05-03T21:25:00.000+12:00

Aku juga punya hati dan perasaan
Kata-kata jenaka

sedikit menyentuh perasaan

walau aku cuba sedaya upaya

menidakkan

untuk mengelakkan dosa

aku tidak mampu

kerana aku punya hati dan perasaan

aku punya hati dan perasaan

bersyukur

namun lemah

terdetik

alangkah nikmatnya mempunyai

seperti yang lain

seperti kebanyakan

aku punya hati dan perasaan

bibir mengukir senyuman manis

sebagai semangat

menginginkan ketabahan

di kala duka

hati di dalam

darahnya menitis

sedikit demi sedikit

aku punya hati dan perasaan

aku hanya insan biasa

yang hanya mampu berdoa

setelah berusaha

tiada daya untuk menolak

menerima ujian-Mu ya Rabb

kuatkanlah hati ku

sucikanlah hatiku

usirlah sifat mazmumahku

padamkanlah kerisauanku

lindungilah keluargaku

redhailah kami

aku insan biasa yang punya hati dan perasaan ini

yang lemah lagi hina

penuh dengan dosa dan noda

memohon keampunan Mu

kau lindungilah keluargaku

kau berikanlah mereka kesihatan

kau permudahkanlah segala urusan mereka

kau usirlah walau setitik kesedihan dari mereka

kau pindahkanlah segala ujianMu kepadaKu

agar mereka mampu tersenyum

dan aku tersenyum

alhamdulillah

Im Thinking Of You.....

2011-04-28T22:47:00.000+12:00

human
ego

human

me ego

when in agony

remember the creator the best

not ashamed

that's me

human

Im thinking of you ya-Allah, Im thinking of You......

ps/ not that serious, well, im used to be average kid. always, since Im a child, sometimes Im on top but I dont really care, i love the I was and I wana stay that way. so I got lower marks than others, who cares! I just do my best & always will ^^ Mira Mir is still Mira Mir, dont bother marks, only the effort. no arguing, what I giv, I get back. Eventhough I work hard, that's not anough compared to others. so.... work harder! ^^

Mama, I miss u soo much, hope that U r healthy and Mama, pray for your daughter here. I wana make U proud, take U everywhere U want, Mekah & Ireland InsyaAllah. Mama, sorry I try to get through U but I havent any credit right now, I will topup. Mama, please be healthy always. Fira, Ina, please stay healthy & study hard, be better than your old sister here. Dont make Mama worry too much & please dont be sad... I cant bear to see any of you sad. stay focus in academic & above all stay happy. Abah, take good care of yourself & iman. I pray u health and I will be with u. Mama, Pia, Ina, Abah, sory for not being the smartest, but Im trying and will never give up trying. I take good care of myself here because of you..

Azim, I love you and hope that both of us can be a better muslim

enjoy life, live happily, achieve everything that u want

InsyaAllah..... the day will come ^^

Alhamdulillah..... no regret.. not at all (',^)

I love my life & I love having the gut to endure this life of mine

my CONFESSION

2011-04-26T21:53:00.000+12:00

confession: when I know assignment due is just around the corner, I'll:

1) just think about it then try to ask people

2) gledah my bag, under my bed, in my locker, too find the asymen paper

3) lastly, just download my asymen paper from Kak Cecil

4) day dreaming ~ remembering all Malaysian food, my future vacation, etc

5) staring the asymen paper

6) until the very last minute, did the asymen until I throw up

foot note= Cecil is the University’s web-based Enterprise Learning Management System.
so our lecturers can interact with us through cecil, we can get reading from here, assignment paper, almost anything about our course (except our learning fees -_-")

bonus foot note= there's another website called EC Mail, this also a site where our lecturers & the university may interact or contact us - this 1 I open it like twice a year

ps/ I registered for Umno Talent Nite this 30 april, & I havent remember the Silat step yet * ceq mana pernah belajaq jurus tunggai..... adeyh..

better finish my assignmentSS first (linguist 70% & EDUC 225 -200% progress)

I MISS MALAYSIA

i have no idea.....

2011-04-25T00:40:00.000+12:00

My ultimate dream come true duniawi version ^^
*thats munzer my friend, me & kak nazz, the koala name is E'O' name of winnie the pooh donkey*

ages....... since.. well... i wrote something.. u know.. in my blog. this blog

went to australia & hug koala ^^

~dream come trueee

went to rotorua

& do many kinds of XTVTs

~ horse riding, real horse! not a pony.

nobody hold the horse. only me, wif instructor in front of course. when Cody ~my 1 million fast horse showed his attitude, out of the track, running up the steep hill, im the 1 who has to control me. cuak (takut) siyes!!! the instructor just instruct from a far. rilek nya nikki, amboih...

did sky swing

& pray not dying at first then terbahak-bahak, silly ait

rode luge

& almost accident ~ sapa suruh gatai nak rakam kan, punya prosek kamera smpy tayar sebelah terangkat

water-rafting

wooo.... adventurous..

I swam at the river & almost drown ~Tim (our instructor) said it's safe to swim. banyak la..... laju! hap hap ceq dlm ayaq, ketih udang bagai

I never dreamt that I did all of this. now Im not afraid to try almost anything. just believe in yourself & travel. if u think that u'll never make it, u will never ever try.... I went to australia with just a little amount of money. now im still alive. even when im in malaysia, i'll continue saving money & travel. insyaAllah. & i wana take my family too ^^

how about you?

please

2011-04-06T23:54:00.000+12:00

live to please Him, not others. then the others will be pleased.

InsyaAllah ^^

I wonder why......

2011-04-05T02:34:00.000+12:00

baby *the cake maker* n pejal *the juice maker*

ya *the cake maker 2*

baby again & nate *the singer who dedicated a song for me* ~blushing~

sometimes I ponder upon our emotional state,

why did we feel insecure, sad and angry,

for He always be with us and we should always have faith in Him.

and everytime Im sad, I juz think of this : " our weariness, pain and hardship now, in the past and in the future wash away all our sin".

it's kifarah. So smile ^^

stay calm dear heart

ps/ thanks to all my beloved, for wishing me birthday, for coming to my room and chatting away, for treating me many kinds of FOOD, and most important thing is for always be here for me. luv u... my friends celebrated my birthday last night, they pretended to forget my birthday at first, haha,naughty and nate dedicated me a song.. so sweet..

im deeply touched. sayang kamu semua

me!!! the FOOD lover & the happiest young woman in this whole wide world ^^

ps/ my mom called me at 11 thinking she called at 12, so sweet.... not easy for a shy person to express her love to her daughter.. sayang mama

and thanks to Bubok, who spent his whole day skyping with me... sayang kamu juga

semua saya sayang

paling saya sayang ialah Allah, because He gave me good health and people who love me dearly. Alhamdulillah

have u ever came across her?

2011-03-26T14:15:00.000+13:00

do you know a young woman

who has been so blessed with love

and she remain silent and astonished

not knowing what to do

how to say

and when to show

her love and gratitude towards others who showered her with love?

yes, she's happy, more than happy

she was overwhelmed

amazed

and deeply touched

her life, even though was full of hardship and complicated matters

she was so blessed with love

and she really want to give more love to her beloved

more that she could ever said or do

ps/ I love you. thanks for showing me how to love...

1 thing that I learnt, no matter what, we should love without asking for return, and then we get all the love in the world without being expected. and that is the most special gift that He give when we are patient enough and never stop to love

My Path in NZ

2011-03-23T10:37:00.000+13:00

went for ice-skating at paradice skating, at Botany (about 1 1/2 hour from Auckland)

***dream come true***

I really wana ice skate since in Malaysia.

then I rush back alone to Eden Park to watch Rugby, Hurricane (wellington) vs. Blues (Auckland). Blues win! yAHOO!

***dream come true 2***

really wana watch live rugby in NZ since im 3 years old watching rugby in my dad's school

went to chocolate boutique

***dream come true 3***

I wana hav 1 choc boutique someday with my sister ^^ amin...

koala???

*****:dream in progress:*****

---> wana hug koala so much coz im known as koala in my family, well my mom always call me that coz I love to sleep and eat and sleep again. haha. notice my blog address? koalamira

ps/ learning not to think of those who look at me in disgust. May Allah blessed you dear. im happy and contented and still love you. so... what-the-heaven

ps2/ living my life, giving my best in studies, loving everybody & everything. no hard feelings ^^

im cool as long as u dont show me more

2011-03-22T01:15:00.000+13:00

I walked out from the kitchen & suddenly one of my floormate cover his bare body, he put on his towel so im okay with it

haha

he looks funny

'sorry' he said

me: im cool with that as long as u dont show me more than that

ps/ cute ait people who respect others. my RA (ketua aras) really respect people and she ask the others to do that. I luv 6th floor. we are the best ^^

ps/ will wrote bout my 1st ice-skating & rugby match later. miss all of my beloved...

Im AFRAID of...

2011-03-18T17:42:00.000+13:00

I already submitted my 1st assignment! ooo yeah!!! -> my ketua aras tagline, plagiarise, hahah

I went through the latest issues

tsunami.. (May Allah bless all of them, I pray them well n health)

my seniors' graduation. congrates! ~ feels like wana grad rite now

read blogs

read the cursing of people in FB

read the blog of a pious person belittle well urmm --> xsuka sgt2 ckp psl politik -_-"

read the blog of persons who kinda expressing quite wild opinion towards those who not wanting to be in a group

OH MY!

its too much for me

I cant take too much negativity in my head n soul

I pray

that each one of us

reminding each other

nicely

discussing about religion and various knowledge in peace

expressing ideas and opinion

with manners

smile ^^

ps/ mira mir can handle lotsa prob but intolerant of negative aura. so sorry... memg lemah. I actually like to run away from negativity. improving to avoid my own self from making one too... ha yg ni extra lemah... chaiyok2! we can do it! ^^

excited to go to rugby match tomoro. yeay!

happy face after submitting my first assignment. 7% only which scared the hell out of TESOL, hahah, coz 1st assignment here. but it's fun ^^ -erk, fun? yup, quite fun learning new things

Dear Sayang~

2011-03-15T10:22:00.000+13:00

Dear Sayang,

Im sorry that I hurt you

I know you are so sad, maybe were

Im always feel guilty

I did not meant to talk like that to you

I was emo yesterday and bam you hit the jackpot

We was once a good friend for a while

I dont know what happen than you kinda leave me away

Im not sure why

Maybe it is because I ignore you or I made mistake

I know Im not a good friend

I love people but seldom show it to them

I thought it's ok as long as we understand each other

i thought that you will always love me

sayang,

u seldom talk to me now

I tried to approach you

until I finally dont know how n thought that U r much happier without me

Maybe Im a boring person

and not the best for you

and sayang,

when you suddenly talk to me

you choose the wrong word

It made my heart broke

as Im not wealthy to buy all those expensive things

of course my things is in abundance

only boutique could made a special 1

sayang,

Im feeling kinda awkward with you now

and Im such an idiot saying those things to you

Im sorry

and no matter what will be after this

I will always love u

as I cant just ignore people who r once so dear to me

ps/ it's all on ourselves. to love or to hate, to be with people or to isolate, to always have good thought about others or to critique. It's all on ourselves and I choose to think positive

Alas! pictures ^^

2011-03-14T03:45:00.000+13:00

it's been a while

quite bus y lately... naah.. dont know what to write actually

i've been with my camera everywhere I go

I name her "rumet" ^^

do have a look at my recently uploaded

PICTURES :)

ps/ cooked nasi goreng kampung at kak mai's, kak tasha's n kak maya's

out with kak nazz, she cooked me a very delicious meal, carbonara. Luv it!

been given printer n winter coat. alhamdulillah ^^

wana cook for kak syud n k nazz in da future.

missing bubok (coz we'r not in touch lately, he went home- holiday, dont hav the connection)

Im out of money!!! but it's worth it, i've bought almost all of my beloved souvenirs already. hehe ^^

Don't Deaspai, ALLAH is There :)

2011-03-09T21:34:00.000+13:00

Find Him everywhere n always

with sincere heart

and humble heart

for we know only few

improve.....

sujud..

no matter how u've been treated or thought of

keep walking along his path

dont ever rebel

(walaupun geram sgt2 kan)

Dont despair

Allah is there

dont fall asleep

keep searching

as u always are ^^

tak tahan.. I.cant.resist.it.anymore.... it.is.killing.me

2011-03-09T10:30:00.000+13:00

wednesday is the most busiest day in my whole week here (tu pun sebab hr lain kelas cam ada byk ruang2 :P)

I 1stly plan to buy somting later after I save enough money

but then... jeng3. I cant resist it anymore

I wanna buy the usual 1 1st

haa... guess what the thing is..

after class at 4 pm today, i'll pray then planning to walk on my own along Queenstreet

nak try amek feel jln sorang2 here ^^

ps/ alhamdulillah murah rezeki. Thanks to those who always help n gave me the needed things. akak2 garage sale, kak mellow who gave many things, kak syahida also, my friends. Alhamdulillah...

ps/ps/ cant help missing some friends of mine. not anybody's fault. biasa la jiwa sensitif, bila da makin jauh rindu-rinduan ^^ u dont juz walk out of my life coz I will always remember each 1 of u in my prayer ^^ hope all of u r always happy n dont forget that Im always here for u ^^ (banyak nor smiley ^^)

When Mira Go Shopping...... ohh my

2011-03-06T22:39:00.000+13:00

went shopping at dressmart!!!!

best

all the clothes

but im a tough girl

who only spend for important things

shirts & dress!

naah.. already have

but wait, juz a few clothes

it's okay, nex time

shoes

only 1, need a flat shoe

5nzd only

great! :)

LEVI'S

naah

hav 1 already

my only jeans

get the third free if we buy 2

BOUGHT!

awesome -_-"

luckily I shared with faradell

i bought 2

hee

but it's worth it

this will be my jeans until I become a grandma

I went in and out

making sure that i really love the jeans

and that's how I shop

didn't buy unless I really like it!

me luv :)

ps/ must save money after this

love having great time with whom im comfy with. thanks guys ^^

Respect & Love

2011-03-06T00:39:00.000+13:00

Respect whos opinion differ from us

Love others no matter who there are

As Allah never differentiate us in showering His love others than who obviously betrays him

when u start to think 'owh how lost they are'

keep in mind whether they are totally object Allah

and if not

even their faith is not as up to your standard

remember that we never know except Allah

that is why He always reminds us

to always have good thought

and show your benevolence to others

For we are not created to judge others

we are asked to always reminds each other in the utmost wisdom

and mature

remember to always bear in mind to keep our head low

for all of us are all the same

in the search of The Almighty

its nobody fault, it's a test for me....

2011-03-02T23:09:00.000+13:00

I made maxx rider card (discount for buses trip) until 1.30 pm

at 2 pm I have another lecture at old choral hall building

nate said it's too late

yup, i agree. xsuka la kejan2

but then the others have already taken their resources for skyping session tomoro (3/3/2011)

*we are assigned with 1 Flatbush primary student, we have to make plan n help them improve their literacy through skyping, kena ngajar la kiranya.

tik tok tik tok

Im sweating in the coldness of Auckland (panas gak sebenarnya)

I called baby, ya, almost every1, asking for direction

"human sc departmen"

a ala, me and nate thought it was at Fisher Building miles away

ok, I searched around the building for 3 times approximately

then I went at every level in the building

no sign of my TESOLion

-_-"

I dont want to give up

I hate to depend on others and cant stand on my own feet

yes, bak kata seseorang

Independent lar wei

I run like hell

and at last it's almost time

I have to go back to my lecture hall

at the traffic light

my dear TESOLion asked me whats wrong

I burst into tears

dang! xpenah penah aku mellow camni

malu giler.....

Im not mad at anybody

seriously it was nobody's fault

it was a test for me

to make me stronger

and I feel that it is a sign that

I may cry, its okay to cry sometimes

memang susah sgt nak nangis

now, im sensitive

but don worry

Im okay ^^

it is just I now realise it's okay to cry

and Im learning to let others help me ^^

thanks u guys TESOLion

im touched that all of u cared bout me

I really hope I will not bother all of u so often.. hee

ps/ im not good in remembering. that is y I always carry map n take notes ^^. Auckland university memang agak berterabur okay... mira, cepat2 la cam jalan ~visual learner~

another thing, my student for skyping session is not in the list so I juz prepare my lesson plan simple n will solve it tomoro. insyaAllah

Spending the whole day in Huia Residence

2011-02-28T00:50:00.000+13:00

I woke up late

I wash my clothes

I vacuum my room

I have learnt how to play ping pong from syue ^^

im too lazy to cook

I juz cook omelettes

and eat it with rice + salty soy sauce (everybody find it quite weird I used salty soy sauce, yeah i prefer the salty 1, even in cooking)

and

I find its quite fun resting in Huia, hee

and I suddenly realise!

no wonder I havent the zeal to cook because

I dont have enough ingredient to cook!

ai yai yai

so, i'll setup my kitchen slowly

making list if tomoro I happen to go n buy food stuff again

(bubok ckp aku keja mkn ja... nk wat cmna, mkn utk hidup, hehe)

I wish and I will

2011-02-27T03:07:00.000+13:00

How I wish to capture the beauty of your smile

to retain the happiness in our memory

mayb DSLR, video cam, even my drawing (smua ni xdak lagi, nak melukis pun bhn xdak)

I wish to show you the path of my life here

the trees,

and I wish I could let you feel the cold wind blew right to my face

how I wish

and I will

try my very best to live happily

to enjoy my life to the fullest

im happy and i always will ^^

Allah, please bless her with good health, ameen

with L.O.V.E

alhamdulillah

Some day in Flat Bush and senior's house near my Huia

2011-02-26T01:26:00.000+13:00

went to the Flat Bush primary school ( 1 hour from Auckland oooo) phew

met n do some reading n comprehension test, my student Lio Taavili age 8

havin fun but i catch a cold there... so didnt get near the student afraid that I might infect them

then like after years we've been waiting, we reach Huia and Zzzzzz....

i woke up, and after taking my bath, went with nate to kak mai (cohort 2 from ipti) and kak tasha's (kak mara scholar). ate moi sup while watching TV.. aaaa... felt like home ^^

tomoro's plan:

9 am : muslimin orientation at faculty of engineering (no idea where, depend solely on map -_-")

12.30 am: wait for TS then walk to buy cooking utensil

after fin shopin : go kacau2 kak nazz, haha. it's her birthday! org hari jadi mana ley mrh2. hee

~no matter how powerful a women are, she must lower her head in front of the men, not as sign of weakness or opression, it is a sign of respect so the whole institution are in balance and harmony~ to be respected, we must first respect

Niat, ikhlas, sincere, forgive

2011-02-24T23:33:00.000+13:00

Dear Amira,

befriend everybody who are willing to

dont hurt others

And forgive everyone

It doesnt matter what people think u are

Its your heart that matters

and pray that to never hurt, never hate and always help

it's hard

really hard

(terutamanya aku yg lmh iman nih)

insyaAllah

Only He knew whats in your heart

no matter what u do

whether U r smiling in front

and talking at the back

He'll knows

and If you were mistakenly thought as pretending to be nice to others

just because you need somebody or alone

He'll always stay by your side, giving hands, getting u through your lives with smile

yours truly,

Amira

ps/ I appreciate advices, im sensitive I am, but I'll try, I know it's for my own good.. if u scold me, its ok, I know its your way of advicing people, I accept. Ikhlas (3 minutes terasa but now seriously im fine) ^^

ps2/ bought comfy socks (1nzd) n a thermal clothes (5nzd) from seniors at forte. still searching for gloves. woo woot

ps3/ join HUIA residence sports day, eliminated early in soccer (sorry bubok for letting u down) but the last person in dodge ball. geez, i just stand there. people started to cheer and some even join to accompany me. gee, im touched ^^

ps4/stil missing my family, bubok, fatin, and all my beloved in Malaysia.

fatin, u know what, im proud of myself n will never change, i dont want to hurts others and pretending, im happy to be me and fine if others still havent notice me.. (cam riak ja... adeyh). Im living my life to the fullest. dont u worry. Im saving for camera so that I can take beautiful pictures for all of u ^^

Ermm... Sooner or later, I really dont know what will happen

2011-02-23T02:43:00.000+13:00

everybody need somebody or more

we need each other

everybody would love to mingle

even they dont know to or shy

this is the story of a girl who is in dilemma

whether to be alone in doing something or continue with other 3

haa.. mesti hampa tau la ni ttg pe, clue trang tang tang

I really luv being wif u guys

really

in fact i would like to always hang out with u

i know there's bitter sweet along the way

but i forget it everytime we enjoy ourselves

I make this decision because I dont want to hold all of u back

you guys should experience more

go on

dont hesitate because I have limitation n very unique, hehe

and I think it is better sooner than later

go do what you want to do and i'll do the same

all of us will be happy

and dont u ever lock your door

because I'll drop by to be with you guys whenever I can (igt tau)

hehe

luv all of u guys

I have lots of things, saving for other important things

and I dont want to trouble all of u guys because of my condition and health

with sincere love,

(',^)V

-allergic to curry, MSGs, unpredictable allergies that sometimes occurs without eating any of the allergen, adoi -_-"

and also have personal reason to save money ^^

From Auckland with Love :)

2011-02-21T00:56:00.000+13:00

Auckland physically looks like our KL, tall buildings everywhere

we always see people who walk with their bare feet

all of them open their shop late and close it early

very the relax one

I luv it

ni baru Auckland, klu kat kampung2 dia sure lagi nice n relaxing, kan2

one thing that I love the most is the weather

I always cant stand the heat in malaysia

here, even during summer I find it quite hot

didnt wear sweater

but when it's windy, feels like air-cond blowing to you

waaa...

and the building here, very nice

some of them look like a fresh ancient, eventhough it's old, it looks so brand new (ermm, mayb it is new but follow the old design) hee

the mood in the building, each one of them special

when i was in a restaurant named "HuluCat", the cats are everywhere. well i mean there's cat's picture hanging on the wall, cat soft toys.. but no real cat. miss jacko...

the trees!!! Oh Menarik Gilos....... Theres so many interesting leaves shape, yg mcm daun rhu terbalik menghala ke atas, then it has obvious canopy. in malaysia we rarely see trees with obviously seen canopy layers, we do have but often found only in our forest. I act like a kampung girl, so jakun, picking up one leaf at on the road, it's almost autumn... I wish all my beloved are here with me, walking down the street with smile on their face with me ^^

daging tuu d mana2. I luv the woody woodpecker sound they use as sign when the pedestrian should cross the road.. tuk tuk tukt tuk tuk. comeyl

should not go out at night, dangerous. sometimes the homeless disturbs and most of the time the drunken gone wild

HOMESICK really drove people wild. Thank God Alhamdulillah there are so many who cares about me... im ashamed of myself to be so lumpy and saying Im alone. padahal Allah selalu ada, family, kawan2,.. mira... mira.. tul la ckp Marni: ko homsik ni, tul la ckp Kak Syud: HUIA memang psycho (real fact: HUIA was former Psychiatric Ward, and Grafton bridge near HUIA was a suicide spot). cis! tul ckp smua org: Im never alone, I luv them all. and the most important thing is I miss my rumet, she understood me, its not that others dont but Im totally weird n irrevocable when I have problems. I know all of them luv me. when I think back, its quite selfish saying im alone when i have so many LOVES around me. what a shame kan. I love all of you forever ^^

when u r havin hard times

and there is still a long way to go

the distance seems clear

if u juz close yor heart & mind

you would never feel the LOVEsssss

at the park at 8 pm (cerah agi kan2? haha)

ps/ sy tgh merenung syue d sebelah, dtg bilik semata-mata ceriakan sy sampai tetido. kesian dia.. what more can I ask?

Ya Allah

2011-02-20T22:53:00.000+13:00

Kuatkanlah hatiku menempuhi dugaan-Mu

Meski aku bukan yg terbaik di dunia

Aku berharap agar aku menjadi yg terbaik di dunia yg kekal kelak

Aku redha...

Engkau kekuatanku yg hakiki

don cry baby don cry, u will be just fine ;)

2011-02-18T22:15:00.001+13:00

just after a few seconds on the train heading to KL, I realised that I forgot my lounge suit (I cant fly without this suit)

I put all my family into trouble, thats y i just suck all of their tease and anger (more to advice actually)

My cousin n his frens drove insanely to chase my train, at the 3rd station, he handed to me through the fence, how lucky am I

I promise myself that i'll never forgot anything and put others in problem ever again

but,

juz now, after me and my group in a restaurant, I suddenly realised the file with my bank card in it was lost.

I must have left it the bank card and all sorts of thing about my account after opening the account

I was busy thinking how on earth can I survive when all the travellers cheque will turn into lotsa cash in another 4 working days, that means +2 days (weekend)

O ohhh... i only hav few msian dolars, les than 100NZD after being converted.

called the bank, prayed that i will be charged more than Im having now, dup dap dup dap, u will be charged 5NZD, alhamdulillah........ ps/ not so worried bout money coz jackie (my lect) asked before she can lend us some money and we can pay her after we get our cash *wink2*

see..... Allah tests us, and at the same time He help us in getting through it. alhamdulillah... thank u Allah for loving me ^^

~please dont tell my mom, she hav nothing to worry about, im living just fine and happy, people treat me well and im opening my heart to others again

I need your LOVEs

2011-02-06T10:20:00.000+13:00

I need you

Do you need me?

We need each other

Every1 need love

and love is the one that bind us together

and He is the one who creates love

thus I need Him more than u r

but I still need all of u

I need your loves

only then He will love me

May He showers us with love

Every second of of our lives

LOVE

ps/

ps/ my poem looks like Canadian leaf, huhu

Are we allowed to be mad?

2011-02-04T04:36:00.000+13:00

normally im an ignorance

(plg mrh pun wat muka ketat then blah ja, tido dlm bilik)

wonder y some people r so mean, y they like to talk bad, y they did that to us

and as a normal human being......... ish memg dah bayangkan nak tarik rambut smpy botak ja, ske hati ja nk ckp apa, nak pergunakan org

astaghfirullah.....

no matter what people did

we will be calm when we did nothing back

no grudge

calmness will follow

insyaAllah.....

May Allah accept my repent as Im forgetful

ps/ reading a book about an Israeli girl, thinking how life will be in Auckland, thinking of my dear IPTIans, praying that Allah will always be with me and protect my family here

fyi: kalau org wat dajal dgn mira mir, try sabar agi, ouh kalau wat somtin kat org2 yg sy sayang, so sorry, memg susah nak maafkan, kirim salam

cried for 2 minutes, smile along the way ;)

2011-02-02T05:34:00.002+13:00

I wonder what wait me at the end

what life will be

with whom will I be with

but hey, none of it worries me

Allah kan ada :)

a friend of mine formspring me recently, asking me what makes me emo

well actually, im moody when the problems are soo unbearable... im holding myself together

so..... hey, im so sorry im I make such ugly expression, no in the mood, grumpy...

smetimes I seemed lost thinking of solutions...

less words, dont want to hurt the feeling of others

I will try my best not to tell my problems, dont want to burden you my friends, anybody

as long as I can, I'll keep all of my weariness tightly in a closed neatly wrapped box called my heart

and Allah, thank you for lending me Your ears, always

thanks for your concern my friends, i appreciate your understanding ^^ luv u. pray me

FLYing WITHout WINGs

2011-01-29T23:22:00.000+13:00

i dont hav broadband, now in CC
i've prepared all the basic things
my departure date: 16 feb 2011

pray n wish me luck ^^

" dont mourn on what u dont hav, dont compare with others n smile with what u hav because u may not realise how special things that u hav compared to others ^^"

Harut & Marut malaikat yg dmurkai by Muhammad Yasin Owadally

2011-01-05T14:19:00.000+13:00

situation:

juz finish reading the book (please refer to my post title) ~skema~ and watching national geographic about palestenian gerilla combined with germany, taking Israeli as their hostage (in a plane).

my favourite verse in this book are:

1. seorang penyair sufi pernah berkata: "dengan penuh gembira aku meluncur mengharungi ombak badai yg ganas, kerana tanpa kesukaran (kepayahan mujahadah) merupakan neraka bagi si berani"

~I like this, I dont regret being tested by Allah because I know I will forget Him if He doesnt remind me.

2. jika ada perkara yg x mempunyai apa2 perhubungan dgn kita tetapi mendatangkan kemudaratan, perkara yg mudah ialah jangan melakukannya, agar kita dapat rapat dengan Allah Ta'ala. Bagi seorang Islam ialah dia x melakukan apa yg x ada kaitan dengannya

(according to this book, Harut & Marut are angels which had been sent to live among human as a test after the angels criticised human's wrongdoings. The angels then were defeated by only a woman who persuade them to drink alcohol & they make love (berzina). the angels then teach human bout magic/socery but only after warn human that the angels were only a test thus return to Allah. ~org2 yg blajar tu xphm bhsa.

~I also like this because I avoid doing something that Im not good atwhich will never benefit or instead making it worse (e.g. voicing out opinion about stuff that Im not specialised in: politic, habit of people aka gossiping, religion, etc etc)

~I notice a lot of melodramatic documentary about Israeli and American army, so sad....... konon la kan. Pasal org2 palestin, ibu2, anak2 perempuan yg di ragut maruah, ayah2 dan pemuda2 yg dibunuh sesuka hati x lak kan. ni disebabkan seorang tentera amerika yg pandai2 kepung Palestin then terkena satu bomb attack dah riuh sekampung. yg aku agak memuji pasukan gerila Palestinian nih dia lepaskan seorang tebusan Israel - wanita yg sarat mengandung yg mengadu takut keguguran. --> yg ni x lak depa heboh2. Tp pape pun, xpatut gak gerila serang menyerang, Islam is Peace. ~sorry, laju-menaip-otak-x-sempat-digest mode~

when Im alone and bored~

2011-01-04T15:11:00.000+13:00

last night, as usual being emo, thinking all sorts of probs

i buzzed dr. M.S. my beloved roomate back in langkawi...

we talked, we chat, and I realised how much I missed her

i talked bout my prob(s), she talked what happened to her

and I finally realised that im actually not alone, im the one who love doing my sdn. bhd. work - no wonder la kan -_-"

and then few people contacted me

Allah is helping me, he showed that i do hav friends, lots of them

the main point is

no matter if my friends are busy or not

He is always right there for me, I forgot

last night I advised dr. M.S.

"we hav to study EXTRA hard so that we can later take care of our parent, thus Allah EXTRA loves us"

I told her that

I didnt told the same to myself earlier

again, I FORGOT

thus

I must keep reminding myself

May God have mercy on us

remember Him always

ps/ I bought 4 books (harut&marut, 180 ciri sembahyang nabi, asas fardhu ain, fadilat rejab sya'ban ramadhan) which cost only RM1 each. cool! I mean alhamdulillah... memg tgh berjimat nih

ps/ps/ I miss all of my friends :) praying all of u are happy and in good health. amin...

ps/ps/ps/ penat la google macam2, boring punya angkara *think '+'

AAUUMMM!!! a..a... achoo!

2010-12-27T04:45:00.000+13:00

I've been to Muzium Padi, HO yeahh.. now im a true Kedahan!!!

(i/c perlis, love both kedah n perlis)

On the way to the muzium... jeng3..., there was this 1 waja car acting like crazy, going in and out of the emergency/motorcycle lane - jam, suddenly it hit a motorcyclist (i called 'abang'). the abang then scolded the driver but he ignored. so the abang hit the car window with his helmet. the car stopped and a women in the car raised her so-called-nice&polite-voice because her son cried (drama). the abang 'advice' the driver and raised 3 thumbs. haha. Go abg motor!

Mira Mir skin test result=

Im allergic to

1. house dust mite (dust) - sedia maklum

2. shrimp - da tahu

3. lipas - of coz la kan, kotor

4. curry.... waiit, CURRY? (this was the part where doc n nurses laugh their heart out)

ok la, luckily Im not into curry. better then this one lady who allergic to chocolate. yeah, CHOCOLATE. alhamdulillah, thank God i can still enjoy my deary choc ^^

ps/ congrates Malaysian footballerz. u played well. all the laser drama team was not the reason why we win, u deserve it, u played well, nice strategy rajagopal -walau first2 caca merba wat aku ketaq

-one more thing, sgt rindu nak swimming.......... sob2

Auckland, list, contract, HAVOC

2010-12-09T04:19:00.001+13:00

Things To Do! ouh, please lar weyh Mira Mir, QUICK

1. settle accommodation contract

*fill in, sign, scan n anta to accom servic~ accom@auckland.ac.nzfax: +64(9)373-7552

~check status at https://accommodation.auckland.ac.nz/StarRezPortal/

2. book hotel

~pre depature briefing-18/1

*Aras 1,

Blok 2251 (Bangunan Mustafa Kamal),

Jalan Usahawan 1,

63000 Cyberjaya,

Selangor Darul Ehsan

3. packing!!!

-Quran with English translation

-universal adapter, extension

-internet (LAN) cable (bout 5m)

-stationaries *exm pad, pen, pencil...

-books related to m'sia

*nesamalar

-trench coat

-thermal clothes

-sport shoes

-kasut bertutup

-jeans

-tshirt

-hidden clothes

-socks

-tudung, slendang

-beg kuliah

-toiletries

-vit e cream (face)

-sunblock (high SPF)

-body lotion

-lip balm (we hav to wear regularly, even the boys, say no to chapped lips or crack skin)

-medcine

-handset

-lappy

-camera

-pad

-specs

-sunglasses

-document (ic, etc..)

-lotsa traditional clothes (b. krung, kbya,...)

-tlekung

-pendrive (hardisc, etc)

-lotsa NZ dollar

*$1566 hostel fee

-slipar

Why?

2010-12-08T13:03:00.000+13:00

“Haven’t I a handsome feature for any one of them till I’m in a state of misery. Do they ever see a heart before taking and forget about it.”

She walked out the door and never return.

She was raised with so much odd loves. Not from an ordinary couples, odd couple as what she named hers was. But then she learnt a lot about sacrifices, pains and also the love of a mother. A quite bright young lady with the exception of normal ordinary fine one, she was different – opting for challenges and living for people whom she loves.

Yes, there had been quite a few who once in a while reached her in fear and doubt she walked along with them until she was very certain, solid in determination but then, he forgot his vows. She backed and strained herself, in silence sorrow she stood there, again in her position.

Maybe she was a lady with too many imaginations, thinking that life is all about happy ending but then she always got none of it, seldom did she succeed in this field.

Sitting there in the corner of her favourite balcony, she breathed slowly, tranquilising herself when she aware of her impulse rate. No tears, never a tear. Fragile, vulnerable, she was all that at that moment. She careless about it, quite confused actually thus she set he mind not to believe, but then her heart yearning for one. Until the day when she looks and the eyes shows affection – never decreasing in love, sincerely appreciate them- that day she will be alive again. She never hoped for more. There is indefinite future but one is certain or perhaps, it will be much more different in the future. No one will ever know future.

ps/ yes I love to crap

What-The-Heaven

2010-12-08T07:45:00.001+13:00

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR FATIN LIYANA MY DEAREST ROOMATE ^^

WARNING! Leave this page if u are allergic to AMIRA's CRAP

KETUANAN MELAYU, government, PKR, PAS, MIC, all that poliutician stuff.

well, i never talk bout this, not because i dont aware of it, yes i seem like i careless but actually I am

1. KETUANAN MELAYU- its in the Malaysian Constitution for God sake.

The leaders must always be fair for all races. i am not a qualified person (Im no Dr, Tun,Prof Emeritus or YM)

I agree wif all malaysian politics observers and the Sultans, KETUANAN MELAYU shouldnt be debated.

2. Our media should be fair in their news, they must broadcast about the opponent as well as the government.

3. All this RACISM stuff. There should be no discrimination. this is modern and techno era, y must we discriminate others. live happily with others, together we stand. for those who discriminate, shame on u. all of us breathe the same air, if one of us pollutes the air, all of us may die.

okay. im crapping. I hate politics. thank God I rejected the course that my teacher suggested. I love u cikgu but politics is not my stuff. I hope all of them (UMNO, PAS, BN, PKR, MIC, MCA, ETC ETC = our leaders) play their role, maintaining our country's development n peace, with the utmost profesionalism, wisdom n sincere heart.

for now im contented but i always pray for a great leader with sincere heart and wisdom which fights for all citizen of Malaysia.

May Allah bless us all. No hatred, only love.

Most of the time, SILENCE is indeed a virtue.

I hope this is my 1st n last time post bout politics...

Maal Hijrah - improving myself

I dont know what to do

2010-11-24T08:41:00.000+13:00

heart talks louder than words

is it?

people usually doesnt seem to understand that

its nice to see poeple hugging n talking to each other

I like that

but

I dont know how

I tried

but then it depends on others to feel

my heart

and im contented

whats love and friendship if u cant feel what my hearts is saying

im so sorry for not being the best company

No words, no tears, just a little smile

2010-11-17T23:06:00.000+13:00

I sat there

all alone

by myself

I look outside

empty

it's raining

I suddenly remembered

The smile when he was sending me off

Not his usual smile

I suddenly remembered

Her hug

not the usual comforting one

and I just realise that I was leaving

curled to the left

hugging Lulu

I stay in silence

and finally it rolled down my cheek

speechless

its too hard to say it

but then

it has to be

May Allah bless us

May love binds us together

forever and always

Till we meet again someday

sorry for my passiveness

its too hard to say it

Good Bye

I love you

selamat hari raya korban ! :D beraya kat mane ? :)

2010-11-17T21:45:00.001+13:00

slmt hr raya
beraya nomad ;)
seluruh utagha

Ask me anything

‎"Kalau perempuan berjalan lengang lengok kangkung tambah lagi seksi mesti lelaki akan pandang dan terus memadang , kenapa yek? "

2010-11-13T07:06:00.003+13:00

irrelevant, aku bkn lelaki

Ask me anything

apa yg anda nk buat sebelum anda mati? dan kepada siapa anda nk wasiatkan harta anda?

2010-11-13T07:06:00.001+13:00

beramal byk2, kpd famli anak cucu cicit kwn2 ilmu yg berguna

Ask me anything

rasa camne bila ade orang tudoh kite buat mende yg kita x buat ?

2010-11-13T07:00:00.001+13:00

haa........ tat is 1 of my weaknesses la
i will melenting la of coz
pantang tul org tuduh2 nih coz if i did it, i'll confess or say sorry

Ask me anything

bila nak pergi singapre?

2010-11-07T06:37:00.001+13:00

bru ja p td
last min surprise from mr. B ;)

ps/ bes travel tul2, tanpa duit kuaq byk wlu kaki letih, bru lah travel kan ^^

Ask me anything

What say u?

2010-11-07T06:29:00.001+13:00

have u ever been in a situation where people expect too much from u

you love everybody

in this situation

you prioritise the ones who are always by your side, especially when no one was there

so.......... is it wrong to turn others down for the ones who think of you the most?

it's the right choice to made

cant please everybody

but still I really hope I can please everybody

because

everybody matters

I love all of my friends

even when they forgot bout me

i knew they didnt do it on purpose

I knew that all of them love me

and I love all of my friends

truly

so....

what say u?

TAG

2010-11-06T04:44:00.000+13:00

Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup korang?

Keluarga

Benda terakhir yang korang beli guna duit korang?

Burger daging special, utk yg tersayang, sy suka burger dging keju

Di manakah tempat korang akan melangsungkan perkahwinan korang dan apakah temanya nanti?

D umah, sederhana

Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

yup

Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

insyaAllah smpy bla2

Di mana korang selalu jumpa kekasih korang?

tangga depan kafe

Novel/buku/majalah terakhir yang dibeli?

readers digest, skrg da xbest r topik n bahasa dia

Apakah nama penuh korang?

Amira bt Amir b Ismail B Ahmad

Antara mak dan ayah, mana korang lebih mesra?

2-2.....

Namakan orang yang betul-betul korang nak dalam hidup korang?

Semua tp doa nk ada ikatan yg sah la kan dgn seseorang tu

Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

Mesin Blok B, kdg2 Blok A nya mesin, certain baju bsuh tgn

Di manakah tempat yang betul-betul korang nak pergi?

selain mekah, dr kecik memg tingin sgt nk g NZ coz abah blajar situ dlu, tgk gambar2 n crita2 dr ma n abah really inspires me

SOUTH ISLAND NZ

Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?

smua, menunjukkan kasih syg

5 benda yang paling disayangi dalam hidup?

1.Family (termsuk bkl suami n kucing sy), Quran n maksurat sy, mp3 lama sY coz smua himpunan lagu2 fevret (hilang or rosak ngs sepanjang tahun la jwbnya), pasport (wuahaha), choc, bear lulu sy, stoking comeyl sy, perfume beautiful sy, cosmoderm vit E cream sy

5 lagu yang paling suka dan selalu dengar?

1. Sesungguhnya by raihan

2. Damba Kasih

3. alunan Asma Ul Husna

4. surah2 Al quran dr mp3

3. The Only Exception by paramore

3. It must have been love

4. U luv me but u dont know who I am

byk sgt,,,,,,, yg mna menyentuh hati sy

Bila tarikh lahir dan kat mana korang sambut tahun lepas?

3 april. sambut taun ni kna prank dgn kwn2 tersyg, sgt bes (wlu byk tepung dlm tlinga) ;P

Blogger yang korang nak tag?

semua yg mbaca, buat la ea, bes nih ;)

selamat berbahagia semua..... ^^

rase2 rose layak tak jd teacher ? >.<

2010-11-06T04:32:00.001+13:00

layak
smua org yg suka anak2 murid xkira kecik or sek men memg lyk
org yg k mira ckp absolutely xlyk adalah org yg mengutuk anak murid sendri
merendah kan org len
yg ni, lebey bek jd manager syarikat klu hebat sgt
auwww

Ask me anything